You are getting so big I can hardly call you Sprout anymore. That nickname seemed so fitting when you were a little lima bean that was swimming in there. But now I recognise that you are probably feeling like a big kid now. I certainly know that you are running out of space in there. I have grown to calling you “the kid” or “chicklet” when I am talking about you to your mom. Speaking of which we are talking about you all the time. We would love to know what you are thinking about your landing date.
We welcome you anytime really, although we miss you out here. We are always getting stuff ready for you, we have been since we knew you were coming to us, but I don’t think there is a thing left for us to do. We are ready. Your mom has read the whole Dr. Sears book on babies (we felt like that was maybe what was holding you back – that we had only read books on getting pregnant and birth – if that was the case it is okay, we understand why you would be nervous coming out to parents who did not really know too much about a baby’s needs – but we are ready now). We are feeling even more confident in our commitment to babywearing after reading this book and although you are a kid now you should know that when you come out you are not going to be alone in this big world. We are excited to have you to hold. I have pulled out the breast pump, and I know how to use it… I bring this up to say not that you are going to be bottle fed at the get go dear baby but to say that I have tons of colostrum – you will be fed my chicklet when you get out here – don’t worry.
I am really happy that you have loved being inside so much. I want you to know from the bottom of my heart that I have loved having you in there. It has been some of the best moments of my entire life and I love how your existance has already changed my relationship with your mom. You are lucky to have her you know. She is so on top of all the details of your care and also mine. We are really ready for you to be held by her too. She loves you so much she gets teary talking about you these days.
She is not the only person who is here and waiting for you, your nana is here, she has been here for 3 weeks. It is wonderful that she is so excited to see you. It would be so nice for us if she could go home. Also one of your aunts is here. She loves you too.
So, I don’t want you to feel pressure. We are now past when you could be born at the birth center. I am sure you have felt me crying about this. I hope that did not stress you out. I am feeling better about that dear chicklet. You must have your own mind and I think you are teaching your anal and plan obsessed mama that she should not expect that you will always conform to her ideas. I get it and I will try my best to remember this lesson. So I have let go quite a bit my plans for this birth. That being said, I would really like to not have to have a C-section which means that if you could manage to stay under 10lbs until after our appointment on friday that would be great. Also if you could just put down your landing gear and arrive before next monday night that would also be great so I do not have be induced. I would really like you to be very alert and wake when I first meet you dear baby.
I write all of this to say our little chicklet, that we are so ready to meet you and if you are ready come out please do so. We will work out all the other details as soon as you are here.
We love you so much, beyond words really and we don’t even know your eyes yet, or what your skin feels like, or if you are a boy or a girl.
your mama (and mom too)