We are getting closer and I am starting to feel it. Every day people are asking me at work – why are still here and when is that baby coming? It is funny to answer the same question so many times in one day. I am wrapping up work. Or actually I have been finishing up work for a while now. But tomorrow is my last day at work. I am so lucky, my job while not a high paying legal job does well in the benefits department. So after tomorrow I will be on disability (which is amazingly full pay and does not take away my maternity time) until the baby comes. I was thinking that I would go out sometime next week and I was discussing this with H and our midwife on Wednesday and the midwife we met with was asking me why I was waiting. She said, as H has been saying to me for weeks, that being on my feet, standing in court, dealing with my stress and the stress of other people are not good things at this point in my pregnancy. The midwife said – if you are exhausted at the end of the day then you need to not be at work because at the end of any day now you are going to have a baby. That does put it all in perspective a bit. I have to say that I am feeling mixed about not having any more work. There are tons of things that are so positive about it obviously. First, I feel so lucky that this as a possibility for me, and that I will be able to sleep in the middle of the day because I am horrible at sleeping at night right now, and of course I have a million projects I would like to get done before the baby arrives. It feels strange too, I love/hate my job and I have been planning on leaving it for so long. It is a funny how much I dislike change I guess. I did not expect the sadness I have been feeling around leaving my work.
Everything at the midwifes appointment went well. I am negative for Strep B Also the baby has officially “dropped”. It is pretty funny how I had gotten used to not being able to take really deep breaths and how I had become accustomed to my belly always touching my boobs. I am going to miss this belly. Now things have significantly shifted. As a result I feel like there is a bowling ball in my pelvis. The other big news is that the baby was measuring big by two weeks. This did not make my midwife blink really but it certainly has been in the back of my mind quite a bit. I have been measuring small or perfectly on week and then all of a sudden a two week jump. I suspect the baby is tall. I am tall and our donor is 6′2. Then three people from our birth class came 10 days before their due dates (0urs is the 23rd based on conception and the 26th based on an early ultrasound). I think in my heart I could be early. My friend at work told me that she went out on disability at 38 weeks and then cleaned her house like crazy and gave birth 4 days later.
I am going to try to figure out how to put some polls in the blog over the weekend, I would love to know what you guys think about when the baby will come and if Sprout is a boy or a girl. A random but increasing amount of homeless men of NYC think we are having a girl. I suspect being out of work and being so close is going to lead to more blogging time and commenting. One problem of winding down at work is that I actually have been working pretty hard which leads to poor blog maintenance.
