The Good:
- I love my wife… over the moon in love her.
- We are going to have a baby. I have doubted that there is a live baby in my belly but this morning I felt his or her reassuring kicking.
- I love my family – even if I am feeling a bit oppressed by them right now- I do want them at this birth and they are doing everything possible to make that happen.
The Bad:
- Castor Oil was ineffective. I don’t know why. I did not go into labor. I have been given the go ahead to try it again on saturday which honestly is good but also so gross. I can’t really think about it too much or I want to throw up.
- If I do not go into labor by Monday then I will be risked out of the birth center. I am beyond sad about this. I am trying to not get head of myself. That is four days away. But I have been on the brink of labor for two weeks and there has been no action. Something as got to work in four days right??? So the deal is I have two due dates, I gave the midwifes my older one which was 5/26 and you can go into labor at the birth center until you are 40 weeks and 6 days. By my due date based on conception (5/23) I am at that point. I am so so glad someone told me to give the latest date possible and I am really glad that our sprout was a slow grower in the beginning. The birth center is so much better then labor and delivery for me and H. H could spend the night with out us shelling out $750 for a private room, and I would not have to be on a monitor.
- If, and I am saying to the universe a please “no thank to you” to this, I reach monday and I have not had the baby then I will have a bio-physical done of the baby and if they think the baby is over 10lbs then I will not be allowed to be inducted and I will be signed up for a C-section…. blah. Our baby is big. I am measuring at 42 weeks. I am hoping he or she is not over 10lbs.
The Things I can not control:
- all of the above. I am trying to surrender to this all. I am doing everything I can do. Acupuncture, nipple stimulation, sex, red raspberry leaf tea, membranes have been stripped, evening primrose, walking, squatting, blue cohash, and general talking to this baby.
- I can not control when this baby will come. This baby will do its own thing. We will have it. In the meantime I just have to surrender. This is hard for me.
17 responses so far ↓
strawberry // May 29, 2009 at 10:58 am |
I am so sorry- how very frustrating. I really hope this is your weekend…you never know when it will finally kick in and at least you have a few more days for it to happen naturally. I know you cannot wait to meet your Sprout and neither can we!
Olive // May 29, 2009 at 10:58 am |
I’m crossing my fingers that this baby gets moving in the next couple of days. I really hope you get to have the birth you wanted. I imagine the surrender part must be really hard. xoxo
Pufferfish // May 29, 2009 at 11:21 am |
Whatever God is to you “Let Go and Let God”.
You are right that this is out of your hands now, but I still hope you get the birth you envision.
Jackie // May 29, 2009 at 11:23 am |
Hugs. Many many hugs. You are doing such a great job in this tough situation.
wishinghopingpraying // May 29, 2009 at 11:59 am |
I am so sorry. I can’t imagine how hard this wait is. I am sure you have tried everything but if you skipped over spicy foods and ginger give them a try. Fingers crossed for you.
poppycat // May 29, 2009 at 12:27 pm |
Wow, this has to be so very hard. I think your surrender plan is a good one but I would like it much better if you were able to have the birth you planned for.
Keeping you in my thoughts ladies.
poppycat // May 29, 2009 at 12:30 pm |
PS. You have to have this baby soon because I got ahead of myself and moved you into the “already have their baby” section of my blog roll last week. I have been to lazy to change it back so according to me you already had the baby!
Lizzie // May 29, 2009 at 1:19 pm |
You are doing a great job. Thinking of you! Lots of love!
mulberry // May 29, 2009 at 2:14 pm |
been thinking about you gals so much over the last 24hrs… hang in there my friend. xxoo mulberry
S. // May 29, 2009 at 2:40 pm |
what a frustrating wait. i hope it is over soon. sending big ((hugs))
Tiff // May 29, 2009 at 3:52 pm |
oh girls…. it’s so hard. i’m thinking of you both and crossing my fingers that this babe comes very very soon. i remember the wait….i was 13 days past due and it was definitely frustrating. it’s sooo hard, but you are doing everything you can and everything RIGHT. these children just come on their own schedule. i promise though, when that babe is in your arms….all this will soon be a distant memory. hang in there guys. xoxoxo
reproducinggenius // May 29, 2009 at 5:10 pm |
The surrendering has got to be one of the hardest parts right now. I hope Sprout decides quickly that it’s his/her time to be born. You really do deserve some relief from all of this anticipation! Crossing every appendage I have that s/he comes before any of the above-mentioned interventions are necessary. xo
Lo // May 29, 2009 at 5:44 pm |
Oh, it’s so hard.
To be clearer about my last comment, it was actually Co’s 2nd dose of castor oil that successfully evicted J….
alimis // May 29, 2009 at 9:50 pm |
I am just sure that your time to meet your little one is soo very close. Fingers crossed for you girls.
oneofhismoms // May 30, 2009 at 8:32 am |
I forgot, Trucker’s water broke while I was squatting AND I had just put my mom on the phone to my belly. I could have my mom call you?
I’m so sorry you guys have to go through this crazy wait. We never had to do that. Tell the boo boo we love him/her.
oneofhismoms // May 30, 2009 at 10:34 am |
One thing is absolutely sure: two weeks from now, all this anxiety will be nothing but a paragraph for the baby book.
2girlsandtheirfamily // May 30, 2009 at 5:31 pm |
You are doing such a great job! Just try to keep a positive attitude … it’s bound to happen any minute now!!