my name is L. Let me introduce myself. I am blogger who used to write with some frequency. I am a pregnant lady whose partner in crime said to me this weekend – “so do you think you are going to write on the blog again”. ummm. I don’t know what happened. I have things to say, tons, I just don’t know were to start. I am an internal processor, which I guess makes it weird that I wanted to have a blog; but, I do want to keep writing on this blog. Here are things that I have been thinking a ton about.
1. our multiple big transitions: Let me be clear, we wanted both of them, but I am so overwhelmed by it all. Money, moving, motherhood – the 3 Ms are all freaking me out a bit. I keep telling myself this is normal, and then I tell myself again at 4:30 when it seems my body NEEDS to wake up to process this all.
2. Birth: I am starting to really think about what I want this birth to look like. I have been reading Ina May Gaskins book Guide to Natural Childbirth. And I am excited. I highly recommend this book. We are going to our birth centers class this weekend and then the weekend after that we are starting our Brad.ley class. I am ready to talk about birth so much. I am sort of done with people telling me I am crazy to want to have a natural childbirth. Don’t people see the problem with saying to a pregnant lady “You are crazy to want to have a natural birth – it is going to be so painful”. I particularly love hearing it from men.
3. Work: I have been thinking of it a bit, mainly because I have not been there because I have called to Jury Duty service last week and this week. I love being a juror. I am a dork, I am a lawyer, and it all makes me happy. But work, I am trying to figure out what it means when your dream job is no longer your dream job. And how to figure out my recent need to make more money. I have managed to be only slightly bitter about my salary until now at 6 months pregnant and it is something i think about a lot. I want to provide for my family, and I made a decision 6-7 years ago that means my salary is one 1/5 of what it would be if I had made the opposite decision. Now H. reminds me that we would not have the same relationship if I had decided to go into corporate law, but still I am dying to feel more financially secure. I know this is wrapped up in pregnancy somehow.
4. Sprout: It is hard not to think of this little kicker. We are 24 weeks, viability legally and medically. I have tried not be a worrywart about things, but I have to say that I was so happy when I got the email today that I am officially in 24 weeks. Sprout is a ninja, a swimmer, a dancer and a fish. The movement is so so wonderful. I love feeling him or her. People have started to guess what I am having. I think it is really fun. Most people think I am having a girl, although there has been a good amount of boy votes. I have been dreaming of sprout and most of the time sprout is a girl and the rest of the time gender nutraul. H and I have been talking about names, what do you guys think about having 4 names? first, middle, middle and last (not hypenated). Is it too much. I am person who has been called by her middle name since birth, so I know that having a different name is sometimes challenging. Will we be burdening our child to much if they have two middle names?
5. The glucose test. It is 15 days. I would be lying if I did not feel like this was the final countdown. I am nervous. I have not been the best about my eating. Although, I eat very well I was going to go on boot camp diet for the test and I have not. I am waiting for my body to let me down on this. I wonder when I will get back the confidence that my body will do the right thing. I lost that feeling in TTCing…not so much from our tries exactly (we actually did pretty good – an aggressive 4 tries) but from everything that led up to our actual inseminations. Okay really that whole cancer scare business and surgery – I am wondering when I am going to recover from that.
okay, I want to write more on all fronts. H is calling me, dinner is ready and I have some wii fit to play (which is pretty funny and a bit hard to figure out what excercises are good when you are pregnant.
It feels good to write, I knew it would.
13 responses so far ↓
oneofhismoms // February 3, 2009 at 11:46 pm |
So you wrote! Good job. You are going to kick some baby birthing ass, Mama. Pain, gain, lots of kegels.
Do you guys need an infant car seat by any chance?
Olive // February 4, 2009 at 12:24 am |
I’m so glad you wrote! Just remember that when you don’t we’re all dying for your updates (no pressure
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I’m glad everything is going so well and Sprout is such an aerobic little fetus. For the record, I’ve been thinking of Sprout as a boy this whole time. Also, I think you’re going to ace your glucose test. Those are my predictions though I’d be fine with just being right about the second one.
I don’t think 4 names is too many especially if the last name isn’t hyphenated. With two middle names he or she won’t have to pay attention to all the names at all times. Most people don’t pay much attention to middle names on a daily basis so you can tuck two of them in there as a nice surprise.
xo
reproducinggenius // February 4, 2009 at 10:53 am |
It’s so good to see you writing!
I actually like the idea of two middle names. It gives the child options, and as a kid, I always liked having options with my names.
I don’t have any guesses about your little one’s sex–not yet anyway. Isn’t it interesting, though, that when you have dreamt of the baby, that it’s either a girl or gender neutral. Perhaps your subconscious knows something you don’t. Either way, I love to hear Sprout is moving so much. So cool.
I can’t wait for more writing. Keep it coming!
nutella // February 4, 2009 at 12:07 pm |
Well hi! Glad to see you here again. I don’t know about 4 names, we’re going with 3 and they are pretty short, too. We never even thought to do more though, it’s been hard enough to get the 3!
We start our Bradley class tonight, so we can all share stories and such.
And the movement is reassuring, bt u ihave to say it worries me about how active our Cupcake will be on the outside. Do you feel that way about Sprout?
tbean // February 4, 2009 at 12:08 pm |
Hey L. I have four names. Two middles names. It’s isn’t really a big deal.
strawberry // February 4, 2009 at 12:12 pm |
I need to hear more about Sprout to make a good guess about the sex. Are you carrying high or low? How fast has the heartbeat been on average? And how often throughout the day do you feel Sprout?
Not that any of that actually means anything
Good to hear an update! Glad things are going well despite the stress. You’ll get through it all I know.
mulberry // February 4, 2009 at 12:24 pm |
xxoo ever since the conversation with you gals the other day… all i can think of is how much i want a wii! the name question is a good one… i wonder that too… since we are using dakota’s last name as middle names, we sometimes wish we could have another name in there too… just don’t want to weigh the little buggers down with name after name after name… oh, who knows!
Loretta Anderson // February 4, 2009 at 6:36 pm |
Hi there,
I read your wonderful post, I don’t know you, however, it sounds like you are going to have an amazing birth!
I am a midwife from Australia and have a natural birth blog, see above. I have also interviewed all the natural birth gurus, they are available at http://www.child-birth-options.com.
Good luck, I will keep an eye on your blog to see how you are going.
Regards,
Loretta
jessie // February 4, 2009 at 8:59 pm |
Hi! I’m going to get that Ina May book def. Go natural childbirth! You and I are in similar boats with not finding out the sex and planning the natural birth and having such close due dates! We are doing 2 middle names, ps.
Lizzie // February 4, 2009 at 9:22 pm |
great to hear from you!! so glad sprout is doing so well and moving so much! we have that whole why-did-we-choose-non-lucrative-options conversations all the time in our house. ugh. is your move imminent? remember my sis lives near where you’re headed, so hopefully i can see you there and meet sprout!
giggleblue // February 4, 2009 at 10:07 pm |
the ina may book was a great read! i was able to borrow it from my midwife and i read it between appointments.
what was particularly interesting to me was the historical aspects regarding the treatment of labor and delivery. i feel like you need to understand where something came from to better under stand why it is that way today.
i am presently reading the birth book by dr. sears which is another great read. i’m thankful my midwife has a library because it’s good to get and read these things for free! i’m trying to surround my self with as much positive energy about birth as possible.
CD // February 7, 2009 at 11:01 am |
interestingly, S. specifically avoided lots of “sugary” food before her glucose test and then ended up failing it and having to go back for a three-hour version, which was just fine. so make sure to eat regularly and good luck!!
welcome back to blogging!
tiff // February 16, 2009 at 7:37 pm |
why hello there!
i thing it’s AWESOME that you’re doing a natural birth. yes, it hurts…but you already know that. more importantly, it’s empowering and beautiful and what your body is MEANT to do. the first five words that came out of my mouth after my son was born naturally – IT WAS SO WORTH IT. you’ll be awesome.