This is week 20! L is really starting to show and overall things are going very well. We have the anatomy scan on Thursday, which we are both looking forward to. We are not going to find out the sex of the baby, even though we are both curious. While it is tempting to find out as much as we can about this little Sprout, we have agreed that we want to be surprised when Sprout makes his/her big appearance in May.
So, the aforementioned anxiety… this week we are half way to the birth (give or take). Holy F. I feel like we have so much to do before then and I am starting to freak out. We have mentioned here that we have been given a ton of hand-me-downs and they have been piling up all over the house; bags stuffed into every unclaimed corner of the apartment. This weekend, we decided it was time to go through all of it and sort it into sizes, determine if we have any gaps, and put stuff away. (L is holding pictires of this process hostage on her phone while she is in court today so I can’t show you what it looked like right now. ) It was great to get this done, it was fun, and also incredibly overwhelming.
In this process one focuses so hard on each step on the journey. When we were TTC, that was obviously the consuming, sole focus, since L has been pregnant, that has been the focus. As we were putting the tiny clothes into their own drawer it really hit home that in a few months we are going to have a little person to put into these clothes. It’s not like I didn’t know we were going to get a baby at the end of this, but so far, it has been pretty dreamy and hypothetical. Now we have baby socks and shoes (thanks Olive and Fern!) and about a hundred onsies and tiny jean shorts. I just kept saying to L, “you know, having a baby is a HUGE responsibility. Like forever. The rest of our lives.” Luckily my sweet wife is the nicest person ever, and did not get annoyed that I was a broken record. Of course, I am enormously grateful that we are where we are, and I already love Sprout so much (I loved Sprout before s/he was even conceived), but the reality of the situation is sinking in. And I know I can’t even fully grasp how our lives will change once Sprout arrives. EVERYTHING will be different. I mean literally– our plan is to pack up after Sprout is born, move to Vermont for a few months to hang out with L’s mom, and then move to my home town (AKA, the Mile High City). We have managed to take two stressful life events- moving across the country with no jobs and having our first baby – and combined them into one giant plan. Yes!
I think I just need to get things into perspective. Sure, May is around the corner, but it is not actually tomorrow. Everything will get done and everything will be fine. I just need to take a deep breath and keep repeating that to myself. Everything will be fine… everything will be fine… everything will be fine…
10 responses so far ↓
K // January 6, 2009 at 1:59 pm |
Glad to hear everything is going well. Yes, it is a shock when you actually end up with a baby at the end of the process, but that is the best part of it all. I’m sure you will do great and be as ready as you can be by the time Sprout is here.
nutella // January 6, 2009 at 2:26 pm |
Oh my, you really are taking some leaps this year, aren’t you? But yes, everything will be fine. 20 weeks felt like a really great milestone for us and I’m sure it does for you too. Excited to see some Srpout pictures from the unltrasound on Thursday!
mulberry // January 6, 2009 at 3:14 pm |
deep breaths… i have those moments when i think that too… oh wow, at some point there will be a baby, wow, what will we do then??… i get so focused on the right now issue at hand (getting pregnant) that i have a hard time looking in the distance. dakota keeps telling me it is a marathon not a sprint, that i need to look further out
maybe this is one way you and i are more alike – dogged focus on the moment at hand!
i’ll tell you what, let us help you with some of what you have to do to get ready, it will take my mind off the place we are at… oh wait, that doesn’t help *your* anxiety, just mine
although it may help get some of you stuff done… i LOVE getting stuff done!
jessie // January 6, 2009 at 5:58 pm |
Yay 20 weeks! I love that you guys are right by us as far as due dates. We have our ultrasound tomorrow – hooray for not finding out the sex! I think we still have a decent amount of time, at least that’s what I keep telling myself.
Jackie // January 6, 2009 at 6:24 pm |
Congratulations! From where I sit time is passing so quickly! Hooray, a baby is on its way…will be here in May!
giggleblue // January 6, 2009 at 8:56 pm |
you two are making great strides at 20 weeks. we still have soo much stuff to do! perhaps we should have started sooner. i will agree, the best thing one can do is to remain calm about it.
and we too are packing up after baby and moving cross country! 2009 is going to bring a lot of changes for our family and i’m excited!
j. k-c. // January 7, 2009 at 8:27 pm |
The anxiety is so normal. Things do miraculously get done and the moments of being overwhelmed continue too. You will be fine, you really will. And what doens’t get done can get done later (I have to keep reminding myself that after the baby comes I don’t stop functioing altogether.)
And even though the moves are big and hard it will be so great to be close to family for love and support.
oneofhismoms // January 10, 2009 at 11:08 pm |
You’ll be tired, but fine. Everything will be fine. But you’ll be tired. Did I mention the tired part? Oh dear, I think I’m projecting!
Lizzie // January 11, 2009 at 3:39 pm |
Thinking of you & you guys sound great. I’ve been out of the loop for awhile …. but congrats on 20 weeks. And the photo of 19 weeks is awesome! Take care.
Olive // January 13, 2009 at 10:26 pm |
May definitely isn’t right around the corner. Soon, yes, but you have time. And you are both going to be such wonderful mamas! Everything is going to be better than fine.