Anniversary-eve

So tomorrow is the second anniversary of L and I getting married in a field in her home town in Vermont.  We first met in 1999 through a mutual friend.  From that first meeting, I knew that there was something special about her.  Through the years, we barely saw each other.  Every time I was with her, I felt even more sure that she was somebody I needed in my life in a significant way.  We both went through relationships with other people, moves to new states, getting into grad schools, all the while trying to figure out why we couldn’t be friends without it feeling like torture (I can’t tell you how many journal entries I have about her through the years!).  Finally, I figured out that being friends with L was never going to be enough (I think she figured that out before I did).  Even though we had been out of touch for quite a while, when I decided to move to NYC for school I knew with near certainty that L and I would be together, even though she lived in Boston.  (I am so lucky she felt the same way!)  Tomorrow is our 2 year wedding anniversary, but she has been an incredibly interesting, loving, challenging, sometimes confusing, and always exciting force in my life for much longer.  Here are some of my favorite things about L (not an exhaustive list):

• She is the warmest person I have ever met.  No matter who she is talking to, whether it is a stranger on the subway, the person taking our tolls, or a close friend, L has the abililty to connect to others in a way that leaves them feeling validated and seen.  Living in New York has not made her stop doing this.
• She is wicked smart
• She is a really good kisser
• L has a wonderful family that has welcomed me as one of their own
• My family loves L and she loves them even though they are a little crazy
• L does dishes 90% of the time in our house, and cleans the litter box 10% of the time (or less)
• She lets me keep a worm-composting bin in our kitchen
• She cries when she sees the Statue of Liberty and loves the promise of this country more than anyone I have ever known.  Her daily life is about her committment to upholding the Constitution, which she takes really seriously.
• She is incredibly kind and loving
• She is not afraid to be honest and open about how she feels
• She is really funny, but always insists that she isn’t
• She is a great aunt
• She really listens to people
• She is really sexy
• She has the most beautiful eyes
• She will be an awesome mama and I can’t wait to see her with our children

I feel like the luckiest person in the world to be able to spend my life with her, wherever it takes us.

Happy Anniversary!

Expect I am not, hope I am

That is how I feel about my current pregnant status.   We are one week down and I feel pretty good, the only symptom of note is that I am super thirsty… I am thinking this means nothing.

We did meet dakota and mulberry this week, it was so wonderful.   I again feel that ache to meet each of you.  The four of us were talking about how it felt like we were old friends because of our blog relationship.   They were wonderfully good people to talk to and as we walked away from each other at almost 11:30pm I said to H. I could have talked to them for hours more.

We did go to the BIG clinic.   I was nervous about having a male RE but it all turned out really good – He was so nice and actually talked to us so much more then any other RE has.   The current plan if I am not pregnant (see some hope over here) is that we will do two more cycles of IUI with gonal-F and then move on to IVF.   Overall, I left there on Thursday feeling like I was going to have to IVF, not worst thing, and of course I can still get pregnant this cycle or the next two cycles.   It was in general a bit overwhelming.   I am super glad we did not do that last Friday when we did the insemination.

We are going to be out of town again, for a wedding.   I am a bit over going out of town however I know we will have a good time and we are going to be staying with my sister so I am looking forward to seeing her.    We will see you all when we get back.

What the ?!

I was just looking at our “blog stats” and see that one of the search terms that landed someone on our site was:

“calming effect from pants pooping”

I have so many questions about that I don’t even know where to start.

–H.Babypants

It’s been a whirlwind….

We have been neglecting this blog. In our defense we have been busy and most importantly we have had a guest in the office/guest room all week, which does not lend its self to private blog posting. We have been busy in the TTCing world too.

We did an insemination on Friday and also on Saturday so we are in the two week wait. After a two and half weeks of injectables I had one follicle who wanted to volunteer (or “join the party” as our RE said). We did choose a new donor – and we really like him. He is a swimmer on his college team so I am hoping his swimmers know what to do in there. We had a funny insemination on Friday, because as I was laying on the table, and H. was holding my hand and we were just trying to think positive thoughts before the doctor came in we suddenly heard shouting from the alley next to the window. There was a full blown fight, including swear words and someone breaking it up. We really laughed however, when the doctor came in and said “just ignore those guys and focus on what is happening in here”. The nonexistent ‘romance’ of a office IUI was ruined and we had a real “New York” insemination. I thought we had an appointment with the bigger clinic on Friday too, but when I scheduled an appointment for the 29th, apparently the person I made the appointment with thought that meant the 29th of September – how she could infer that from our conversation is beyond me since we were in the month of August at the time I made the appointment. Once we got over the extreme aggravation of rushing over there after our early morning, and once the appointment was rescheduled for this Thursday, I actually felt happy that we did not have to talk the day of the insemination about what we are going to do if/when this one fails. I would like to give this cycle a fighting chance in my mind at least. At this point I have been relatively successful. Hope is so much easier when you have sperm inside you; 29 million of them to be exact.