Yesterday H.’s step brother’s wife gave birth to a baby girl. This baby girl was conceived by accident, the month that H and I were going to start trying (oh Nov 07′ how you caused us heartbrake and a cancer scare). It was a big deal in H’s family and the step brother and now wife quickly got married. It is obvious that that baby was going to be born, and we are both happy she was born healthy. It just stings quite a bit. We were licking our wounds, sitting on the roof drinking seltzer last night and H and I were saying everything that has been said before. It stings that people who are complete fuck ups just get accidentally pregnant, or in the case of H’s step brother not a complete fuck up but not as put together as H and I. The new baby’s name means pure in another language, the irony of that is not escaping us. Mean while I can feel myself get a bit more flippant about this process, I just made half – caf coffee for H and I share for example.
My mama, I think when I was in middle school, started saying this phrase when one of us would come home grumpy or bratty. She would say “go get in water” meaning go take a shower or bath. I have to say that was a good lesson my mama taught me. There is very little a good hot shower can’t solve. I don’t think I am going to take a shower this morning but I am certainly going to be bouncing around in waves in about 3 hours and I am sure that is going to make the concept of us getting pregnant seem a bit more possible.
p.s. has anyone out there who has taken gonal-F had really strange dreams and the inability to sleep past 5am. This must be related to the medication. This mornings dream I was in the olymipics, swimming, with my current not particularly talented swimming ability. It was a disaster.
9 responses so far ↓
Malea // August 23, 2008 at 10:52 am |
It makes you scratch your head and wonder why we chose to plan for your kids,because we sure don’t get rewarded for doing it.Not to mention these people get pregnant over and over and others can’t get one.Damn!
giggleblue // August 23, 2008 at 10:56 am |
it’s weird how the baby wheel turns – how those who aren’t as vested always get pregnant. how those who don’t want to have children have 15. life is funny.
mulberry // August 23, 2008 at 1:35 pm |
i think the go get in the water thing is a good one…
and, sorry about the ill timed arrival of the ill planned little step-niece, grrrrrr… really what else is there to say…
Olive // August 23, 2008 at 1:46 pm |
I hope the water washes some of it off. It’s so hard not to be bitter about people getting pregnant without trying (or trying very minimally). I hope you two are holding onto each other.
I love you.
vee // August 24, 2008 at 4:46 am |
Unplanned pregnancies bite. So sorry. Glad the little one is ok, though of course your bub, when it comes, will be far more beautiful!
strawberry // August 24, 2008 at 6:27 pm |
I’m sorry. It always drives me crazy when I see people walking around with kids they don’t seem to give a shit about, or more kids than they can keep their eyes on, or whatever the case may be. It’s a shame that nature doesn’t work out that the most deserving, caring, loving people conceive when they want to. And I know you girls will, but the wait is truly bitter.
tbean // August 24, 2008 at 8:05 pm |
Let’s run away and create a commune where no one gets pregnant unless they deserve to and have passed several tests verifying what great parents they will be AND they have waited an appropriate length of time, like say 6 months. M’kay??
boombababy // August 25, 2008 at 1:41 pm |
hahahaha @tbean. yeah LET’S!
i get so annoyed with lani because she is a compulsive shower-er/bather. but it is true, it can really help shift the perspective. maybe i should try it more!
yup, another sara // August 26, 2008 at 1:57 pm |
These “accidental” pregnancies/babies are the hardest for me to deal with. My co-worker recently gave birth to a perfectly healthy baby that she did not know she was pregnant with for 3 full months and did not really want. All of this happened in the time that we have been trying. It makes me crazy.
Anyway, I’m out here sending you both lots of love!