Today is day 8 and we are back from “the Valley” in Massachusetts where we were for a wedding. It was so, so nice – that area is like a second home to me. The wedding was actually on my college campus and it was beautiful. We are thinking when we get legally married in Massachusetts we will try to have it also on campus. We were talking about this 2nd wedding in the car on the way home – what exactly is the etiquette on a second wedding? Especially when it is only 2 years after the 1st? We are thinking a very small group – maybe just us and then little celebrations here and there. We already feel very celebrated but a legal “marriage” is also worth noting.
Everything is going well with the injections. I don’t think they hurt, and I am happy H. is doing them because then I do not have to watch the needle go into my skin. I just grip her leg or arm and look away, and it is normally done before I know it. My ovaries are bumpin’ in there – okay maybe not, but I am feeling them, I think more then I did on Clomid. We go back to the RE on Wednesday for a follicle check and blood levels. I am really hoping what I am feeling is not over stimulation. I just keep hoping for one, beautiful follicle.
We also have an appointment on Monday with a Big Clinic. By my estimation we will be in the two week wait but I wanted to have all my ducks in a row for the next cycle if we don’t get pregnant. I am so grateful for my insurance but my current RE has moved locations and will soon not be accepting insurance at all, so on we go. Also, there is talk at work about my insurance being changed, which has me (a planner) a bit freaked out. We will certainly be talking the Mr. RE at Big Clinic about moving to IVF sooner then I had mapped out in my head which was doing at least 6 cycles of IUI before moving on. We are currently at 4 (or 5 if you count the cycle I was on clomid but did not ovulate, or 6 if you count the cycle I was unmedicated, or 7 if you count the cycle I ovulated but then was told I would have to have surgery instead of an insemination). AGGH it is a lot to think about, going to IVF, but honestly I am terrified my insurance will change and IVF will no longer be an option. I am really battling my type A/lawyerish personality who was raised believing if you work hard you will get what you want and that one should always have a plan. Perhaps we will not have to worry about any of this, we will only have one appointment at Big Clinic, and be moving on to due dates and such. As I type I am having a hard time believing that could happen.
5 responses so far ↓
yup, another sara // August 18, 2008 at 3:04 pm |
I am a planner too– part of it is out of necessity (one of us needs to be obsessed with all the details), but the greater part is just who I am. Having a plan makes me feel safe; knowing that I am ready for a ‘next time’ (even as I hope that I will not need one) helps me make it through each cycle. We may be facing IVF sooner than I had imagined as well and that is so scary to me right now.
Olive // August 18, 2008 at 3:17 pm |
It will happen! And no matter what you and H will work things out and come up with back up plans and all the like. It’s hard not knowing what’s ahead and I struggle against not being able to plan for everything too. But it’s going to work out if not this time, sometime soon.
Lizzie // August 18, 2008 at 3:41 pm |
Hoping you don’t have to worry about ANY of this, but I certainly understand the need to PLAN.
jessie // August 18, 2008 at 4:51 pm |
I am a total type A as well. It’s so hard to handle these things that we have NO CONTROL OVER.
And a legal wedding should definitely we celebrated! We just had our one friend there, but that’s because we went to California to do it.
j. k-c. // August 19, 2008 at 7:31 am |
I love a good plan as well..relieves anxiety.
Glad you had fun in the valley….I went to grad school at Smith so I love it there too. And my sister went to MHC. And S went to Umass – A. And I still have lots of friends there.