Getting out of dodge

I am trying to not pay attention to when we can go get a blood test, but I am getting more and more focused on it.    Wednesday is our day so there are 5 more days to go.   Last cycle my RE was in surgery so I did not hear the results until 5 o’clock – I am hoping that I hear earlier in the day this time because that was the longest day ever.    I have been monitoring my “symptoms” but I am not confident they mean anything.   The only one of real note is the sore nipps.  It is problematic – mainly because I have size G (or really GG) breasts and they stick out and thus get bumped into a lot.   I don’t think I noticed how much they were bumped into until this last week.   Today I have heartburn that will not go away, but after some dr.googling it appears that progesterone could be the cause.    And I have been emotional. On Wednesday I was in a court part and started to cry because a court officer was pissed at me, and I felt it was unjustified.   I walked into the back of the courtroom where the jail is, sat down on a bench and just kept crying.   The crying was clearly not about work in my mind, but I am not sure what it was about.   I could not stop, well I did stop eventually – I am not writing this from the back of a court room but it took a long time.    My job is stressful: my clients are difficult, their situations are difficult, and there is a ton of conflict and arguing.  I actually like the conflict most of time.  I normally do not cry at work, at commercials while sitting on the couch in my house: yes.     The last and only time I have cried in court was back in December when I had the cancer scare and was told I had to have surgery.   On both occasions it was so embarrassing but unavoidable.   Work just gets in the way sometimes of some huge emotions.   The savior of Wednesday was that I got to go to acupuncture which calmed me right down.

We are going away for the weekend to Boston.   I am excited because we are seeing my sister and my dear law school friends.   It should be busy and fun (there is a surprise wedding shower to attend).   I hope it keeps my mind off all of the pregnancy count down.    While H went to the youth Pride event for work, I had dinner with friends and one of them when I explained where we are in the cycle said: “WHAT are you going to do until you know?”   I ask myself that too. 

I know that getting out of dodge is going to  help.

-L