What am I doing?!

I have so much to do at work right now.  I have to write the first draft of a new policy for Friday and I have to edit a document to hand out at a meeting in ONE HOUR (Make that 45 minutes).  Am I diligently working on those things?  No, of course not.  Instead I have been sitting at my desk working my way through all of the back logged blogs on my google reader getting caught up on the TTC news from all of you. 

The funny thing is that last night L and I were talking about this cycle and how we are feeling about it and I said that it has been slightly less stressful because I am trying not to obsess like I did last time.  I guess instead of constantly thinking, “What if we’re pregnant? What if we’re not pregnant.  What if we’re pregnant?! What if we’re not pregnant…” (this is a truthful and accurate portrayal of my thought process last cycle.  Two whole weeks of it.)  I am obsessively reading about everyone else’s process.  I think this still counts as obsessing.  And here I was thinking I was playing this so cool.  Cool or not, in my lifeTTC seems to lead to BAD time management!  How will I support my family once I get fired from my job?!  Okay, I really gotta go.