Our niece at age two knew that red meant stop and green meant go.
I realized that my thinking on the meaning of these colors, when related to my period have changed so much in the TTCing process. I would imagine at most times in this process red would mean stop but right now red means go – and as I waited all day for that particular “go sign” I got that type of impatience I get while sitting at a stop light. When I was little I had a magic wand that I would wave from the car-seat in the back of the car to “change the light”. Sometimes I still think to myself that if I will the color to change it will. I have been reading a lot of blogs recently, I love it. It really is wonderful to feel resonance with others feelings, to read about peoples experiences that I know nothing about, and to feel so invested in other peoples successes and sadness.
I wish that I was still 3, in my backseat, firmly believing that I could create magic. I would waive my wand and we would all be pregnant. I would make all lights green (via a pregnancy test) or make a red light now and then, someone needed to start her period like me. It would be magic and wonderful.
3 responses so far ↓
j. k-c. // April 16, 2008 at 5:22 pm |
That is soooo sweet. We used to blow at the red lights to make them change, from the back seat.
And your wishes are beautiful! I wish them too!
I’m waiting for a RED go light too!! Hopefully tomorrow!
oneofhismoms // April 16, 2008 at 8:08 pm |
I hear you, sister.
May your red/green light come soon!
mrsbluemont // April 24, 2008 at 10:23 am |
You’re putting some pretty beautiful karma out there honey. Thank you!
“waited all day for that particular “go sign” I got that type of impatience I get while sitting at a stop light” – Exactly.
oxxo